you're my BITCH

Friday, May 20, 2011

What ever that happened

Definitely feels weird to have blog over here again after so much that happened. I bet you must be hating me right now and start flaming me online again. I get that; but I honestly don't know why you decided to just disappear. Oh well, I wish you well in all that you do then. I always hoped that we could be friends but I guess our relationship as been stretched way too long for us to be normal friends.

Find someone else and treat her right if you feel that you could have done more for me. You know what and where went wrong; so, don't make the same mistakes again. You will do well as a good boyf, just don't sway to the wrong path with the wrong company.

I do miss the attention I get from you when I complain about my back, my breathing and what not. You're sure right about fact that only you know me really well. But I also know it all has to end and I will have to learn how to stand on my own one day. As much as I could get whatever attention that I want, I never want to show my weakness; so not many know about me.

Maybe exams are coming up and stress is taking over me. Fainted twice in my own place and never dared to tell anyone about it. Injured my back during grocery shopping and I couldn't get outta bed. Part and parcel about living alone I guess.

"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever." - M. Grey

You get what I mean when I don't want a relationship now? Its the fear that I fall in love and expose myself so much I get hurt so badly, again. I want to avoid that.

Anyhow, I wish you well.

Maybe this is the kind of closure that we never had.

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time;10:19 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2011

THE END

This marks the closing of the chapter. The End.

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time;9:02 PM

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