Days haven’t been passing by well; ever since my phone was all crooked up and went haywire. Apparently the connection has some problem and the cost is going to be deadly. I really dislike this, being able to earn, yet needing to give out so much more? My new pay includes my daily expenses, repair for phone and even some stuff to pay up. I wonder will it be enough for me to survive a month. Traveling is enough to kill me and eat up my allowance. SIGHS, bad days ahead of me.

I always thought that life is in a balance; means if your day started out bad, you’d have a nice ending or vice versa. My day was OK, but I really don’t wish to end my day with baby like that. I didn’t want to explain much; yet I can’t find a way to prove myself and what I have for him.

Walked pass him just now and it all felt really weird? It’s been some time since I saw him; adding that he has been avoiding me for some reasons. He’s so much different now, yet I don’t feel a thing at all. Weeks back he was everything to me, but now; I wasn’t affected at all. I even felt great, being able to walk with the one that could really give me happiness. Instead, being like an idiot guessing his feelings for me.

Then the phone call made baby think that something was wrong. I was struck there, didn’t know what to do. The words that came out weren’t convincing to baby that nothing was wrong. I know it, in my heart; somehow. I was so afraid that he would just go off, I wanted his trust, but his face wasn’t really convincing of what he said. But I guess I didn’t have any choice but to go on, prove what I feel and what is in me.

I want to be with baby, I wonder if the future would be promising, but I would give this a try, with all that I have. Not putting any less in this. If ever someone comes in and tries to be funny,
I’d stick to the same phrase:

As long as you’re holding tight, my hands wont let go.

Baby, I’m all mesmerized by you again. All night today.

loads of <3;
BITCH